Kaizer Chiefs midfielder Jabu Pule is "being propelled by a mysterious force" which often causes him to consider suicide.
Speaking to City Press newspaper on Sunday, the talented playmaker said: "Ancestral spirits are haunting me, and my career will not go anywhere if I do not appease them.
"Sometimes I feel like going away where no one can find me. I really need help as it is not my intention to vanish."
Pule also refuted media reports that these problems were a result of his refusal to assume his estranged father's surname, Mahlangu.
He did, however, confirm that he was not on good terms with his paternal family.
Pule said he would rather resort to using a double-barrel surname.
The 23-year-old went missing on the eve of Chiefs important Absa Cup first round clash against Sundowns two weeks ago.
As it was not the first time he has done this, the Chiefs management suspended him indefinitely without pay.
They also ordered Pule to appear before a disciplinary committee last Friday.
His fate will be known today.
Pule remains in the care of dentist Dr Delisa Khumalo-Sibeko, who accompanied him to the interview with the Sunday paper.
Khumalo-Sibeko confirmed that Pule had been in "a bad state and suicidal".
"The boy was in a mess and I decided to take him on and let him stay in my house to have some peace of mind," the dentist is quoted to have said.